my mom told me yesterday not to buy any more fish, because i get too attached to them and it's not healthy. she actually said that, that it's not healthy for me. she suggested a flower or a plant as an alternative, like henry. my dad stayed with me in chicago for a month last year and bought me henry when he left so that i would have some company. henry grew to be about half my height and i ended up having to throw him away when i moved out and went to Korea for four months. that was sad, too.
a fish is just a fish, but there is a simple and beautiful peace in the consistent company of a living creature in the private comfort of your space. he was a very active swimmer, and i really liked when he swam in and out of a little figurine i kept in his kimchi jar, and rested inside of it. it was nice to come home to a little life after a long day. charlie also led me to contemplate often the ethics of raising pets, as well as the relationship between humans and creation at large- how we have failed to care for God's created things in the way he calls us to. i would have liked to take charlie to visit a nice big rice paddy in thailand one day...but would i have had the compassion and selflessness to let him go? i am not sure =\
goodbye charlie, goodbye. i miss you.
in other news, i saw a dead pigeon the day before charlie died and it terrified me. it was quite the traumatic weekend.
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